Written on: Sunday, February 1, 2009 Time: 1:11 AM
I am starting to learn about myself both in school and on the golf course, it is not really about my abilities that i am concerned with.. when you realise you set too high of an expectation of yourself, you do not know how to lower it because you do not know what normality is.. In my instance, i demand a high standard to which i conduct myself of everything, now i ponder whether i am doing the right thing to over demand even though through theoretical thoughts, i presume that this will bring good outcomes to all aspects of my life..
However, to a certain extent, i currently do not seem to be experiencing the latter and i have been asking myself if being a 'control freak' will add contentment to every part of my life but it appears otherwise when people start to misunderstand you as being too stiff on the outside but when you are actually soft on the inside...
Nevertheless, trying to control my actions to reach my expectations did bring certain good outcomes but all i can say is that being a 'overly-serious' person is not a satisfying outcome for me as an adaptable individual where i want to have a good balance in my everyday life, not just being competitive and dominant at work but also to have a margin of 'slacking', joking and fooling around in order to achieve an offset towards my sturdy outlook..
There is one thing i really hope that will not happen and that is to continue to blind my foresightedness and continue to be stubborn and close myself inwards, becoming an introvert which is as good as being a loser at the end of the story..
Written on: Sunday, February 1, 2009 Time: 1:11 AM
I am starting to learn about myself both in school and on the golf course, it is not really about my abilities that i am concerned with.. when you realise you set too high of an expectation of yourself, you do not know how to lower it because you do not know what normality is.. In my instance, i demand a high standard to which i conduct myself of everything, now i ponder whether i am doing the right thing to over demand even though through theoretical thoughts, i presume that this will bring good outcomes to all aspects of my life..
However, to a certain extent, i currently do not seem to be experiencing the latter and i have been asking myself if being a 'control freak' will add contentment to every part of my life but it appears otherwise when people start to misunderstand you as being too stiff on the outside but when you are actually soft on the inside...
Nevertheless, trying to control my actions to reach my expectations did bring certain good outcomes but all i can say is that being a 'overly-serious' person is not a satisfying outcome for me as an adaptable individual where i want to have a good balance in my everyday life, not just being competitive and dominant at work but also to have a margin of 'slacking', joking and fooling around in order to achieve an offset towards my sturdy outlook..
There is one thing i really hope that will not happen and that is to continue to blind my foresightedness and continue to be stubborn and close myself inwards, becoming an introvert which is as good as being a loser at the end of the story..
